I Love You More Each & Everyday of My Life

Dear My Baby,

Thank you so much for a wonderful birthday, for being with me through my good and bad times. Thank you for your prayers and wishes in my birthday, it was the most sweet moment i have ever had, the moment you said "semoga kamu tambah sayang sama aku" almost made me cry, but i feel you were expecting me to love you more than i do, i have no more idea how, i have given you so much love, that is all that i have, i wish we could be together forever, im suffering here inside, im suffering because of the person that i love. and im enjoyning the pain. Believe me, i will always love you no matter what.

I Will Love You With All The Love I Have Left

I will never ever regret the moment i met you, each and every seconds i have had together with you, no matter how many times we had fight and said "we're done", no matter how imperfect we are, the fact that i feel comfort and safe cannot be denied.

The only thing i regret is the fact that i met you a little bit late, i met you while i had someone who devoted his life for me, to keep me happy by his own way, why i cannot love you both? why i cannot have u both? is it wrong to love you now? if it is wrong then why it feel so right? maybe its because it wouldnt be fair for any of you.

Please Dont Leave

i dont know whether the feeling i have for you is right or wrong. the thing that i know is that what i have for you is too strong. the more i feel this way, the more my fears haunting me. the fear of losing you make me feel miserable.

these 2 days you have shown me what true love is all about, you knew that our path has no end, but you kissed them away, you keep taking care of me no matter how tired you are, no matter how useless it is.

why you did this to me, yank?
why do i have to feel this from you?
why you are so honest?

oh God, why him?
why you brought him into my life?
why you let my feelings grow this strong?
why you let me love him?

is it wrong to ask him to stay n not to leave me?
is it wrong to ask him to love me as much as i do to him?

Is This The End?...

I dont know what was just happened. i dont have any idea what was the cause. i dont even know what did i do wrong but i just feel that it is ain't right.

So empty, so quiet. What i feel seems no longer important. FAKE! everything mixed up, i'm angry, i'm upset, i'm sad .... but it wouldn't be fair for him.

I'm so sorry for what i did, so sorry for being me.

Who You Are...

I'm not blaming you for what happened. And it's not your fault, you are who you are, the person i fell in love with, person that i care about, i know that you have been through so much pain, i know how upset you are, but i know that you are more than that...from the very 1st time i met you, you have changed me to a better person, you have tought me many things, not to see things in negative way, start to think of other people feelin, not to act too stubborn in admittin our own mistake, easily forgive, those are precious lessons of life that i've got from you. and i thank you for all that you given me.

I just wish that you could be someone who wise enough to sacrifice your own anger for all the person you love and care about...

Just want you to know that, whatever you decision would be, i will be here and support you throughout your good and bad times.

I Love You ...

I've never feel this way
I've never been this happy
I've never been this sad

There are so much thing i wanted to tell you but i just dont know where to start

From the very first time i met you again after years, even until this moment, I still amazed by how we start everything up. Never thought such "thing" really exsist.

What I feel for you is just too strong to be denied. Too real to be dreamed of. It is hurt knowin that its only a matter of time, as if it is a time bomb, which will end up when its explode.

I keep questionin of why it happened to us.

1 MONTH ...

its been a month now since the first time we met but i never ever failed to remember how a wrong place in a wrong time would end up a perfect love like what i have with you.

i didn’t expect that it is through me that your seemed-to-be-wrong-ways would straighten up like the way you suppress my own ways from turning to what is awry. i just cant help myself but to simper when imagining how we accidentally started it all. i was not certain if its alright ti smile because of our very funny beginning or i just have to simper because of its slot ways.

It started when all i knew was i was there because i wanted to have fun with my junior high friends who happened to be your high school friends also. but eventually i found myself enjoying the moment with you and also the same thing to you with me instead with others.

2 days after, Oct-10, 2011 we decided to meet again and i didn’t know why i easily gave in. it seems we met long time before that made me trust you in that snap of time. that was so full of emotions but i was not sure if it was already love.

Today is exactly 1 month we've been together as an affair couple...and i almost screw this up.